The kids had a wonderful Halloween. Wish we could of done more but with the lack of money and everything else we pretty much are stuck with going without.. I'm dreading Christmas time cause I'm pretty sure we arent going to be able to afford anything for the kids.. I hate that we're in such a rut right now and that my kids have to go without. 

I hope that this up coming deployment helps get us out of that rut. I'm going to miss him so much! And the date is set for the 27th of Dec, I'm not looking forward to it... Its coming up sooo fast! But at least he'll be around for Layton's first Christmas.. Just wish that he wasnt going to miss both kid's birthdays ): 

But on a brighter note, my best friend just had her baby! So that was better news that what I've gotten in a while.. His name is Michael Tristian Lynn Wellard Rowley! Talk about a loooong name!

He was 6lbs 10oz 19.5in long... Only 3ozs more than Layton and half an inch loner than him too!

Proud of Cassie, first baby and she did a great job!

So I'm in this place out in North Carolina with my husband and children.

Stuck in a situation that I dont know how to handle.

All I know is I hate where I'm at right now, mentally my state of mind is all wacked.

I just want to be able to do things without having to be expected to do it.

I want people to appreciate me and the things I do, not expect me to do things and then treat me poorly when I do them.

I have a job that never ends and sometimes I would like credit for doing it.

I love being a stay at home mom & wife but I certainly like having a little bit of help once in a while.

I'll never understand why it is that everyone thinks that just because one of the spouses brings in the money that they dont have to help around the house with the chores and children.

Between dirty diapers, spit up, & toys scattered around the house to a screaming fussy baby who wants all the attention in the world and a 3 year old who runs around making a mess in every room she can possible get into, I'm in need of a break!

Not to mention a husband who works from8-12 hrs a day and comes home makes messes and plays video games it pretty much sucks!

Well I guess I better go tend to one of the screaming children.

Feels good to have a place to put my feeling into :) *sighs with relief*

From the Beginning.

High school. Mutual friends. That how we met. We were friends throught all of our high school years.

Lost touch for a while. But thanks to a mutual friend we caught back up.

I had a beautiful little girl by that time: Klhoee Marie. Which he gladly took in as his own.

March 4th 2008 he signed a contract to be a U.S. Marine.

That changed our lives forever. Being a military family has its ups and downs without a doubt.

But I wouldnt change that for anything.

We married March 4th 2009.

We got pregnant in July and brought our little boy Layton Cole into the world April 12th 2010.

We had a 5 month separation, which was the toughest thing I have ever had to go through but luckily I had friends and family around for support.

Now we are working on our family together and preparing for our first deployment to Afghanistan.

6-8 Months of being on other sides of the world from each other with nothing but a computer and phone for communication.

Luckily I love to take photos so he wont miss much of anything (: 

Our journey is just beginning and I cant wait to see where God takes us.